Stop

Instagram @charlieluckie

My insides are spilled on our bed
Stop
You say
When I use words instead
It's easier to ignore
Silent sobbing of my skin
Complain about stains
It's my fault.

Uninspired

Instagram @charlieluckie

It's me Lottie
You're the nightmare I can't remember
The vagrant unease
With no discernable reason
Stealing my words and
My identity
Definitions and meaning are lost
Nothing is not everything
It's emptiness
No matyrdom gained
I'll never be like you
I may be monochrome
But chaos reigns
Words scream through my veins
Cascading into violence
Fighting your dominance
My will is my own

Poetry?

Instagram @charlieluckie

How many only
Love
The vileness of my words
Because they masquerade

As art?

Hurt you

One step
Please one more
I'm so scared
Soft lullabies scream
Of sleep and darkness
Of never being alone.
An end where I won't scream
Won't bother you anymore

Phd in bathroom surgery

Fever
Flames pouring through my veins
The infection of self destruction calls me to you
Burning and afraid
I'm weak.
Saline solution drowning me
In inability
I'm torn open
My barriers are too weak
I'm scared.

Skinny fat

I drown in floods of illness
I do not eat yet my midsection betrays
My habitual hard lemonades
A thigh gap ever expanding
Yet depression
Prevents perfection
I'm tired.