Sunday, January 17, 2021

12/17

Sometimes,
Sometimes, 
Sometimes;
I'm trapped in me
And cannot leave
Sentience my labyrinth 
From which there's no relief
Exit signs are dimmed 
My mind dulls 
my weak will to live
Sometimes
Repeats
In my head
Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes
can you hear me?
Who is speaking?
It's worse to think
I never feel like me 
And I know it's not ok
I hurt those I cannot replace
Water is my lover 
and yet 
Losing my real lover 
I feel I lose myself
Serotonin hold me 
I'm sorry
My indiscretions 
show my imperfections

Friday, January 15, 2021

2020 #4?

 My talent is wasted on trivial things

I mourn for feelings

I can never keep

Childhood wishes                                   

                                                                                   float away

on stars unseen

Adult excuses 

cover deepened scars

and silenced dreams