Friday, October 11, 2013

Fear of rejection ll

look at me
tell me I'm beautiful
take me out
anywhere
write me poetry 
sing me songs
look at me
the way I look at you
I can't stop staring
but it's only your profile I see
still gorgeous
I can't look away
watching you 
stare at a screen
look at me
give me 
some amount of attention
I'm listening
always listening
to words
I sometimes
don't care about
but you do
so I listen
I love your voice
when I speak
you interrupt
ask "what"
sometimes 
you hear nothing at all
look at me
for more then five
seconds
you say you love me
I love you
but sometimes...
I just don't feel it
and it hurts
more then harsh words
or a slap to the face
it's cold
it's like she
ate up all your love
and I
saved all of mine for you
it's all jokes and silly faces
I'm your friend
and you are my love
look at me
consistantly
sweet words
said sometimes
you're busy aren't you?
ironic
everyone else gave me everything
and I gave nothing
I shower all I have upon you
and yet here I am
watching you watch your screen
like every other day
wanting you
needing you

                                            LOOK AT ME

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Thoughts

Repeat, repeat, repeat
Words that are recycled
Do they mean the same?
Are they as powerful
if they were first
given to someone else?
I need a new language
something fresh
and brand new.
Don't tell me what you told her
I'm me
I'm different

Aren't I?

Emotions are useless
they cloud reason
they break hearts
Happiness leads to sadness
and then on to anger
resentment
uncertainty
I feel so certain

But is it another game?

The past is the past
I'd like to think
I'm picky
you weren't
or so you say
beautiful words
invoking chills down my spine

How can that be false?

If those words of love
weren't true
how do I know
they are for me?
Under emphasize
the emotions
all you want

But they were there.

Rain ll

My love is a masterpiece
A symphony of bliss
Poetry too beautiful
For any human tongue to pronounce
Like the universe ever expanding
He's infinite
Eternally on my mind
Poisoning me with sweet
Content
Perfection incarnate
A dream
I never believed
Beautiful and inconsistent
He reels me in
And releases
A 10 on the Richter Scale
I'll ride through life
Safe by your side
Wrapped around your finger

                                           I'm yours