Thunder

You're the sunshine to my cloudy grey
break my night apart
burst through me and fill the sky
with rainbows.
I am a storm of gloom
tear into me until the tears fall
until everything that hurts
evaporates
I am famine
fill me with your need
fatten with me with hope
so that I may live again

Mama

why did you leave?
couldn't you stay
why did you drink?
couldn't you see?
I needed you
why did you scream?
please hold me
why did you hide?
I needed you

I'll wash me away
in that tide of red
stitch me up again
I'm invincible

Borderline

I am in love
and it burns through me
an inferno reducing me to ash
to embers
gliding on the wind
Torn to pieces I scream
Contentedness

Restlessness stirring
Syllables abound
Pronounce me apathetic
Lazy, insecure
I'm a lady in waiting
Bitchiness demure

I don't care (BPD)

I promise I don't
I promise that I will only spill lies
I will only spread false tongue
I'm happy
Can't you see?
I was a lady without you
(no)
I will be a lady as before
(for you)
And all the lessons you taught me
thrown away
(They are so close to my heart)
You cannot control me
(I will eat)
You have not affected me
(I see myself unharmed)
I don't care of your rules or the
promises I gave you.
(I am so sorry for my weakness)
I never cared for you
(Just one more time held)
I spit on your memory
(My beloved)
I long for your pain
(You are so beloved)
I hate you
(Please never leave me)

Thoughts whispering

I wish I could tell you I miss you
I wish I didn't
I wish I could have you back
I wish I never had you
I wish I had changed
I wish you had accepted me
I wish I were stronger
I wish you were
I wish I could turn back time
to be better
to be sweeter
to be smarter

But I'm just wishing