Silence is dangerous
Twisted in my hair
Dragging nails across my face
Vicious
Whispering confusion
Uncertainty
Spreading venom
Slathering poisonous
Shit
On my skin
Screaming nothing
Silence
Holds my life within it's hands
Twisting, pulling
Tearing
At my sanity
The only affection it has
Is for my suffering
Murmuring lies
Into my ears
Silence deafens
Me to reality
Chained down
Whimpering
I call out
With no voice
All I can hear is
Silence.
Caught up in silence
she screams.
Her chance to be heard
Stop her.
Stop this
Stop
Me
tiny cracks across my skin
this addiction
revolting
inviting
comforting
Self abuse my fall back
I cannot stay away
It beckons
so sweetly
a lover wrapping soft arms
around me.
Gathered in this warmth
She shuts up
getting what she wants
Giving up I dissolve
into nothing
feelings dissipated
sight impaired
sound unheard
it's just me
and her
Endlessly.
A puppet to my
insecurities
dangling from the strings
of abuse
I giggle
hating what I am
loving and hating
you.
Don't look
Don't touch
Don't love me
I'm poison
infectious
paralyzing
I will tear you apart
so we can match
you're beautiful
Let me ruin you.
If you knew me
would you love me?
If you could see the inside
of my mind
would you run?
If I could change
I would
If I could make it stop
I'd give anything.
But I can't
I want to have my feelings flow
down my skin
so soothing that red
Watch me
keep me safe
Thoughts never ending
it doesn't go away
shiny reflecting
The demon
so tempting
Release me
skim across my skin
reveal the me
I am inside
I hide her
she fights
I struggle every day.
Each victory
just leads
To a new battle
